Impressions

I'm trying real hard to give everyone the benefit of the doubt, really, I am!

At what point though do you draw the line in the sand and say "its not there"? Is it fair to do that after a few emails?

This is where I get stuck.

Getting through the intros, all good. "How's your Day?", check! Random questions about life, no problem.

And then, it hits me, and I think I've got it right...HE'S NOT THE ONE!

And yet, I will continue talking because now I'm involved. How do you say at that point, I don't think this is going anywhere? I'm not feeling that connection with your words, the impression I'm getting is less than stellar, it's pitiful actually.

But what if I'm wrong? What if the man of my dreams is just one bad email away from the craziness that is a relationship?

You see the "stuck"? There are so many what if's, and but's, and maybe's!

But I'm trying, really, I am!

:)

I'm my own worst enemy...

My realtor was having a open house for me today and I thought, what a great time to have Elizabeth take professional pictures of me in Vancouver, in her beautiful backyard for my new online dating profiles.

I made sure my house was clean, laundry was done, took Ros to daycare, ran some errands, was going to meet Stacy for lunch and then I was near a movie theatre.

I couldn't resist! There are just far too many movies this summer that I'm not getting a chance to see in the theatre!

So I saw, Dark Knight. I thought it was really good, Heath was AMAZING as The Joker. It was a little long, it almost seemed like two movies in one because a lot was happening in it. I like that they introduced where Two Face came into the story but I liked Tommy Lee Jones's Two Face better but the graphics where better in Dark Knight. I kept wondering how he blinked his other eye though...

I didn't get a chance to get to Elizabeth's but Stacy graciously took some pics outside the Starbucks that weren't half bad, and in my opinion even better in black and white. :)

I'm also going to have to discard my forever wish of winning a Poang chair from IKEA (they are having their 1yr birthday but since I wasn't going north it seemed like a waste of gas to drive up that far to drop a slip of paper in the slot, free chair or no) I'll just have to put it on the list of things to get once my house sells and I move into my apartment.

No luck so far on the house selling front, I'm sure if anyone had come by the realtor would have called, I'm not even sure how long the open house went for.

btw: If you know anyone that's looking for a house in Hillsboro, please send them my way! :)

So far I'm talking through email to a guy I met on Match and I've got some others from eHarmony that I'm waiting for a response on but no eminent dates yet!

I'll keep you posted! :)

It happened so fast...

It did, really!

I was just experimenting with profile data on Match.com, posted some simple, yr old picture and before I know it, I have an email.

Now I had thought about this exact occasion happening and I thought I could control my curiosity, that it wouldn't matter to me, and I could keep myself in check.

I was wrong.

So now, I'm the proud owner of both, a Match.com profile and and eHarmony profile. :)

I've got some potentials, I won't be name dropping, and I'm going slow, as in no dates this weekend, I'm busy anyway! :)

Wish me luck!!

(and who knows how interesting these blogs will be after I start dating....)

Decisions, Decisions

I'm staying in Oregon for the duration! (there was some question there for a bit that I might defect to AZ, but you can't get rid of me that easily) :)

And...

I'm gonna sign up for eHarmony....

Once I have the money (*silently praying for house buyer*) and time to fill out the lengthy questionniare (it may take an entire weekend) :)

In the mean time, I've been playing with what I will say in my profile. What will be enough to say who I am but vague enough that it will spark questions and being honest about what I'm looking for.

Here's what I got so far:

I'm just a regular girl doing regular things. Working, hanging with my friends, walking my dog. :) Along with going to movies, reading, hanging out at the beach and the occaisional television obsession (Lost, Heroes, Saving Grace, SYTYCD, AI) I'm just looking for a regular guy that does regular things (maybe with a few spontaneous road trips or weekend getaways still left in him somewhere) :)

I'd put that I seem to have an obsession with facial hair but I'm afraid of those that would grow a beard just to date me :)

I think it's a good start, but thankfully, it can be edited at any time :)

Foo Fightings...(late ramblings)

So I meant to write this the night I got back, it's been a bit longer than that now...

I will admit that I was excited back in March that I bought tickets to see the Foo Fighters at the Rose Garden in July. Then after I bought the tickets I remembered that I don't really know there music except for a couple of songs that I've seen the videos for in the morning. Those songs being "Best of You" and "Let it Die", there may be others, I don't remember, I blame the radio :) Suffice it to say, they have awesome music!!

But I digress...

First I got there super early, so I had a cheeseburger at the restaurant inside the Arena, it was good! There was this guy with his friends behind me, he drank almost an entire bottle of wine in the time it took me to eat my burger, but he gave the waitress $100 and told her to keep the change, she said later that it was a $45 dollar tip!! She had only made $4 up to that point, it was awesome and she was super nice!

There were two bands that opened for them, Bear (something) which I ate through and the other I believe was Supergrass? They were from England and their instruments were much louder than their voices, I hate that so I didn't tune in very much.

Then the Foos come out and everyone is screaming and Dave is walking up and down the middle of the arena (it's a stage) I assume to just soak up the energy, at least that's what it looked like anyway. For as long as they played, I'm sure he needed the pep! He also had these moon boot type high tops that I found extra cool. :) (he also wears boxers, in case you were wondering) LOL!

Dave kept telling everyone that they play for a long time cuz they weren't a bunch of pussies. But I was still surprised when they played a ton of songs and for like 2hrs!! It really is the way music was meant to be heard, not that I heard much else for the next few days but it was awesome to feel the music coming up from your legs!

The drummer (Taylor Hawkins) was absofuckingloutly fantastic!! He had this like 5min solo that was amazing and his and Dave Grohl's teeth are so freaking white!!

They started on one side of the arena but then moved to the middle and said that they did it for all the people with sucky seats (he said "sucky seats" like 6 times) and now the GA people that were at the front now had the sucky seats. He spit and said "fuck" a lot but he was so funny! He has a very commanding presence on stage.

And their encore was four songs! :)

All and All it was an AWESOME concert and I'm so glad I went!

And if you haven't checked out the Foo's - you should!!!

Finding Love, In Reality....

**Spoiler Alert**

I should start this off by saying that I think I've watched one season of The Bachelor (it was so memorable I don't know which one) and I watched the first Bachelorette's wedding through re-runs a few months ago. (there were helicopters!) I was mostly turned off by the fact that it didn't seem like it lasted for anyone, with a few exceptions of course. Then I started seeing the promo commercials for the newest Bachelorette. I will admit, I was intrigued. Not that they didn't have previously jilted others before but this girl seemed very genuine.

I watched the entire season, including all the extras and I think I can honestly say that I would never want to be in her shoes. She was very honest about what she wanted, she didn't let people stay that she obviously didn't have a connection with, and she seemed to have an open mind when it came to all the guys.

I can't imagine what it would feel like to have to tell someone that what they were feeling for you isn't the way you were feeling for them, that would be so hard and I think she was so brave in being honest with everyone about what she thought and felt.

When it got to the last four I thought that she had picked well up to that point. I was really surprised that she let Graham go but after seeing the "Guys Tell All" episode and she said that it was because he couldn't share himself in a way that she wanted I completely understood. I think that Jeremy was too "perfect" and the fact that he kept coming back seemed very fatal attraction for me and makes me think her gut was telling her that it wasn't quite right.

And then there were two.

Jason - I'm not sure that he really loved DeAnna but I think that he was so excited to find that he could love again and his son liked her that he just wanted to keep riding the train. I also don't think that he could have provided that challenge for her that she seems to want. He is very safe, secure, while still being adventurous but what he lacked was the line in the sand. That inner confidence in himself that would allow him to argue with her in a communicative way. He is the epitome to me of the "honeymoon" guy, everything is beautiful, until it's not, then what happens?

Jesse - I was worried at first about his commitment level but what I respected about him was that it didn't seem like he made his decisions half-hazardly. What he chose to do in establishing a relationship with her was thought out and genuine to me. And while he was goofy, it didn't seem like a gimic but a way to present himself as himself. He also seemed to have a sense of himself and those things that were important to him that makes him an equal match with DeAnna. They both said how lucky they were to have found each other in such unusual circumstances.

I think that she made the right choice for her and I hope that they continue to be happy together.

It kind of makes me want to look again...

almost. :)

It's a wild one - Watch Out!

I'm sitting here laughing thinking I'm probably the luckiest person ever!

That doesn't mean crazy things don't happen to me (i.e. 4 tows in 6 mo) but it really helps you see the really great things in life. :)

I think the most important thing I've ever learned is how amazing it is to be able to laugh through just about everything, especially since whatever is over that hump is better than what you've just experienced, it can always get better. :)

I also have some advice - Get the Extended Warranty!! (you never know what may happen)

Okay, on to one of the Best 4Th's I've ever had. (I had a very large Barq's so I may be a little blah, blah, I'll try to control it) :)

We made great time getting there, the hotel we found was pleasantly vacant and only an hour and a half away from the best fireworks show I've ever seen. I think I squealed the entire show, much to the annoyance of Stacy! :)

We ate in PA at Bella Italia and I had the Best Chicken Fettuccine Alfredo, ever, and really I'm like an aficionado when it comes to Fettuccine Alfredo. The wine wasn't bad either. :) YUMMMM!!!!

We checked out the book stores and barely escaped the parade before heading to Forks for the show. That town is tiny! It had one big park, a few espresso stands, eclectic buildings, demolished cars from the derby, and I believe I've already mentioned the fireworks...

The next day we checked out the rest of Forks and La Push (I could do the drive in my sleep now, well as long as I opened them for the curves) :) The views from 101 were breathtaking, simply amazing to see. I found the greatest worry rock on First Beach and a couple of other's that were pretty cool. Also, the nicest lady works at the Chamber of Commerce - so helpful! We got some souvenirs and took Lots of pictures!

We had some slight car trouble along the way home, for some reason I've got a way with transmissions, both manual and automatic. It's a gift that I'm hoping to work into only using for good from now on. :)

I missed my Ros and I'm glad to be home, partly cuz I have a lot of work to catch up on!! :)