It's about damn time! :)

I've been writing this blog for a few days now, actually, I took notes about this part in one of my many Wednesday meetings; such a multi-tasker I can be. :) Though, is it multi-tasking if you're writing and not listening to what's being said?? :)

Anyway, I've been writing it in my head actually; today was the day I decided that I had thought of too many good words in my mind that I didn't want to forget any more of it so it was time to actually write it down. :) It's been a long time since I've written and in fact I usually don't write much at all when I'm happy and my last few blogs have been really boring, just catch up writing and not much very interesting, but I have this compelling feeling to write about how I feel right now.

The last few years I wrote about this journey I was on to find myself again and then find a relationship where I could be that same person every day. I thought it would be more of a struggle but actually, it's more of a mental thing. It's about telling yourself that no matter what, all that matters is that you find someone that loves you for you, whatever that may be. If someone sees who you are and isn't fascinated, interested, disgusted, and excited, you don't want to be with them anyway. :) Life is messy in so many good and bad ways and keeping up on who you think you should be is just way too tiring, I can't imagine having to keep it up for years and years, it's not worth it.

Anyway, I don't have to. :)

I feel proud and grateful that I seem to have found someone that accepts me for exactly who I am. And from the very beginning, all he has seen is me, because that's all I've shown him. :)

My tummy doesn't do that weird, something is wrong, twinge. I can trust. It's predictable, and surprising all at the same time. It has progressed in stages, I have not pushed myself or the relationship further than I wanted to go. And that's saying something, for me. :)

It's like getting what I have asked for all these years and I want to revel in it. The sheer normalcy of it is amazing, comforting, and real.

I guess I just felt like sharing. :)