So much has happened in so little time

Where to start? I could start at the beginning, but where's the fun in that? :)

I found out yesterday (1/29/10) morning, by taking a home pregnancy test, that I'm pregnant. Yep, Pregnant.

Holy Crap! I'm freaking pregnant!

I think no matter what you do, you can never prepare yourself for all the things what will go through your mind once it's official. We're not telling anyone until it's been a little more time, then I'm sure it will be a select few here and there, then, once it's more "prudent" (dave's word), we'll tell everyone else.

Back to what goes through your mind, and I'm not sure it's hormones, I suppose you could blame it on that but I think it's just realizing the enormity of what that little line means. I'm going to be someones Mom. Someone's boo boo kisser, confidant, hugger, disciplinarian, teacher, and all around guide for this little person's journey through life. It's interesting to me as well how different David and I are in our approach to digesting this step in our lives.

I'm trying real hard for my part to be in the moment, document how I feel, how my body feels, what kind of changes I'm experiencing. I want to honor the journey without skipping over anything only to regret at the end that I didn't pay enough attention. You only get nine months to acclimate yourself to the idea that you will be a parent, responsible for someone else's life. But on the other hand, you get nine long months so establish a bond so unique and simple that it lasts a lifetime.

So even if no one reads this, or I don't post it for all to see, I'll have my own legacy to impart, in my own words, even if it's just to remind myself just exactly what happened. :)

So I'm scared, nervous, excited, happy, and in overall awe that I've reached this stage in my life. And I go back and forth from wanting to tell everyone this awesome news, to telling no one and keeping it to myself a little longer.

In my head is all these things that need to be done to get ready, the rooms that need to be rearranged, the items that need to be bought, the stuff at work to sort out, and I can only tell myself for so long that there is time for that, because it will happen so fast I just might run out of time altogether. So lets just say I'll take it one day at a time, making sure that David and I are both on the same page, walking together, and it will all come out fine in the end, because it always does. :)