The coutdown begins...

I'm in single digit weeks now. Wait, what?!?!? Single digits!?!?! :) I know, it freaked me out too. :)

I must say that the more time has gone on I've felt a lot better compared to how I felt in the beginning. I'm sure there are a lot of things that have helped contribute to that. Not the least of which is getting to the bottom of why I was feeling the way I was, and of course, getting things done around the house. :)

I'm concentrating now on being in the moment, and when I'm nervous or scared about what is coming, I'm trying to experience it for what it is and then attempting to move on. After all, it's normal for a first time mother to consider giving birth to be many things, right? :) I'm actually pretty proud of myself and how I've handled this pregnancy. I think I've felt just about every emotion there is in the last few months and I'm still here, hanging on, and thankful that I haven't really gone crazy in any one direction. I was even tested by my mom. And I feel at peace with the process and I still hope that one day she will find happiness and trust that the world, including her children, are not out to get her. I'm not sure it will ever happen, but it can't hurt to hope. :)

Now my thoughts have been tightly wrapped around birth and trying to figure out how I'm going to get through it calmly, rationally, and in a perfect world, with a little laughter. In an effort to accomplish that I will take one day at a time, remember to breathe, allow those around me to comfort me and guide me, focus on relaxing and remembering at the end will be this perfect little person I'll get to meet, no matter how she comes into the world.

And when/if I start to feel overwhelmed, I'll just distract myself with nesting. :D