Finding Love, In Reality....

**Spoiler Alert**

I should start this off by saying that I think I've watched one season of The Bachelor (it was so memorable I don't know which one) and I watched the first Bachelorette's wedding through re-runs a few months ago. (there were helicopters!) I was mostly turned off by the fact that it didn't seem like it lasted for anyone, with a few exceptions of course. Then I started seeing the promo commercials for the newest Bachelorette. I will admit, I was intrigued. Not that they didn't have previously jilted others before but this girl seemed very genuine.

I watched the entire season, including all the extras and I think I can honestly say that I would never want to be in her shoes. She was very honest about what she wanted, she didn't let people stay that she obviously didn't have a connection with, and she seemed to have an open mind when it came to all the guys.

I can't imagine what it would feel like to have to tell someone that what they were feeling for you isn't the way you were feeling for them, that would be so hard and I think she was so brave in being honest with everyone about what she thought and felt.

When it got to the last four I thought that she had picked well up to that point. I was really surprised that she let Graham go but after seeing the "Guys Tell All" episode and she said that it was because he couldn't share himself in a way that she wanted I completely understood. I think that Jeremy was too "perfect" and the fact that he kept coming back seemed very fatal attraction for me and makes me think her gut was telling her that it wasn't quite right.

And then there were two.

Jason - I'm not sure that he really loved DeAnna but I think that he was so excited to find that he could love again and his son liked her that he just wanted to keep riding the train. I also don't think that he could have provided that challenge for her that she seems to want. He is very safe, secure, while still being adventurous but what he lacked was the line in the sand. That inner confidence in himself that would allow him to argue with her in a communicative way. He is the epitome to me of the "honeymoon" guy, everything is beautiful, until it's not, then what happens?

Jesse - I was worried at first about his commitment level but what I respected about him was that it didn't seem like he made his decisions half-hazardly. What he chose to do in establishing a relationship with her was thought out and genuine to me. And while he was goofy, it didn't seem like a gimic but a way to present himself as himself. He also seemed to have a sense of himself and those things that were important to him that makes him an equal match with DeAnna. They both said how lucky they were to have found each other in such unusual circumstances.

I think that she made the right choice for her and I hope that they continue to be happy together.

It kind of makes me want to look again...

almost. :)